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When I was very little I watched Disney movies. I bet a lot of the people who are reading this did the same thing! Aladdin was my first movie ever. I had to be taken out of the theater because I started crying when the big scary head of the CAVE OF WONDERS erupted out of the sand and started talking.

Of course, I did things like watch TV and read books (yeah I used to be such a reader), but Aladdin, Snow White, and Beauty and the Beast were glamorous and fantastic at a level that Sesame Street could not hope to reach.

I realize now that those movies influenced me a lot, especially in the way I perceived women. Now you know what this post is about!

Okay, my favorite movies were Aladdin, Beauty and the Beast, and the Lion King. They were the ones that I watched like once a day.

Aladdin is this cool-ass thief guy. He is completely free. eh steals bread and doesn't afraid of anything. He even has an entire song about him jumping across buildings and making asses of the guards!! And then he goes into a cool-ass cave FULL OF TREASURE AND EXPLOSIONS and he finds a genie! And gets freaking wishes, man! Then he turns into a prince, gets elephants and fire breathers and ANOTHER song, and then goes off to woo a princess with a magic flying carpet. And then shit happens but he gets out of it by fighting in this awesome battle against an evil giant snake sorcerer with magic flying everywhere. Wow, man. Who wouldn't want to be Aladdin?

( But what did Jasmine do? )

I finished Assassin's Creed 2 and it was so deliciously good! So many beautiful environments! So many mysteries!!

It was also really goddamn frightening for me at times but that's just because conspiracies, grainy old photographs, and crude flash animations freak the shit out of me. Ugh!!

1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest in at some time in your life.
2) Have your f-list guess your favourite character/member from each item.
3) When someone guesses correctly, strike through the item and put the name of your favorite character next to it.

Man I don't think I have 20 fandoms that fit this criteria. For some of the ones I have, I don't have a favorite character.

( I came up with 13 )

I'm playing Assassin's Creed 2 and

OHHH MY GOD I JUST SPOKE TO LEONARDO DA VINCI!!!!

I'M CARRYING A BOX OF PAINTINGS!!

LEONARDO DA VINCI'S PAINTINGS!!!

AAAAAAAAAAA

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PS:

"Beat up cheating husband.

-Accept -Decline"

I think I'm going to like the quests in this game. 8)

EDIT:

"Learn the ways of the courtesans.

-Accept -Decline"

...UMMM...

I've been following the progress of the game Darksiders for a while, because JOE FREAKING MAD is the creative director and JOE FREAKING MAD is ~like totally~ one of my art idols.

The pre-order bonuses for the game were announced a while ago, and it seems they're talking the most about the exclusive weapon you get in the game. Yeah, whatever man. Who cares abou--

Do you guys ever get that thing where you think you wake up from a dream... but you're still in a dream?

That just happened to me

SEVEN TIMES.

But there is a reward at the end of this tale. At first:

- I dreamed was having sex with my older brother (I DON'T EVEN HAVE AN OLDER BROTHER) when...
- I woke up to find that my roof was leaking profusely. It's like I didn't even have a roof! I was freaking out when...
- I woke up to a dark and haunted house and began recalling my dreams. I was being chased by dog people when...
- I woke up and walked to the living room in order to tell my mom about my dream mindfuck, only there were... three moms. They were very friendly:
"Oh hi, Miki!"
"Mom...? Why are there... three of you?"
"I'm Nancy!"
"And I'm Leslie!"
It turns out they were only Mom's friends wearing her clothes. THE FUCK. I didn't get time to mention my subconscious adventure because...
- I woke up FOR REAL THIS TIME. But I only had time to freak out because I was asleep the second I shut my eyes again.
- I then dreamed that I was watching a music video of two middle aged mexican guys singing a raunchy cabaret song about my sexual escapades with my brother... as well as my Uncle Duhrer. I don't have an uncle Duhrer, is that even a name!? Despite being sung in first-person by these men, the song seemed written by me because one of the lines mentioned delight that my brother wore glasses. LOLOLOLO-- This was all cut short when...
- I woke up in a rush to write down the song. It was really catchy and FKING FUNNY. All I really did was flail around for paper, because I guess it's really hard to record dreams while you are STILL DREAMING and I soon...
- Woke up for real. And I wrote the song down for my and your enjoyment. It was very fast paced. Keep in mind that it was sung by two fat mexican guys with heavy accents, LOLL

( IT GETS WORSE AT THE SAME TIME IT GETS BETTER!! )

I haven't posted a lot of art here in a long time because I haven't been in the mood for scanning it all. UGGUHGH. Some of it came out better than expected, while others came out looking kinda crappy.

I have fandom tags but there are only like three pieces of fanart. ):
( There are so many orcs in this post, lol )

I learn so quickly from biting other peoples' styles.

I think I will assemble a beautiful art buffet and nibble from every master.

I will sample so many styles that no one will know. No one will know!!

And I will crush the opposition!!

And now for an unrelated but cool meme:

I think this year has really done a number on my sanity.

I ended up developing a very hateful side to myself. Sometimes I get so angry I feel like I'm full of poison. I want to vomit it all over everybody. UUURHRGHHGHHLBLBLL. Maybe it's nothing new, though. It might've always been there and just went away for a ~lovely~ while.

I feel like I don't understand anything, now, especially people. There was a period of time where I didn't understand why grass had to grow or why anything existed. I didn't do anything besides curl up in bed and be weirded out by the entire universe. I thought, "so this is what it's like to lose SAN..."

Now that I've had a few days without some sort of rage-inducing conflict, I feel like I'm starting to be happy again. Now I occasionally do things like laugh. Or smile. My god!!

Drawing isn't that fun anymore... I think it's because I don't have anything I really care about right now; the only time I get worked up over anything is when I'm angry. I feel like I just want everything to be really quiet and peaceful. I want life to leave me alone.

I'm very sorry to the people that I met this year. You only got to see me be lame and uncool, LOL.........

I cut some people from my friends list a while ago. I noticed that reading my flist would make me really angry, so I stopped watching some of the personalities that made me feel pressured in some way. Other people I just fell out of touch with and I couldn't see myself making the effort to fix that, so whatever. Either way, no one is missing much, because my f-locked entries are almost always lllllllllaaaaaaaaaaammmmmeeeeeeee.

Life is so strange.

I don't understand it at all.

I'm supposed to do something that's good for my soul. I thought of playing video games but I'm not really sure if that's having a lasting effect on me. So instead, I think I should draw comics. I just need to think of some comics to draw. :|

My default choice is some MBF stuff because I didn't have a chance to do much because of school. Other than that... I dunno, I'm totally lost. Stories anyone?? :[

Anyway now I am gonna post some pics. I only have a few digital ones because I'm not in the mood for scanning anything lol;.

( FAT PICS )

YESSSSSSSSSssssss!!!!!

I GOT AN INTUOS FOURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

SCREW EVERYTHING ELSE I HAVE A TABLET AGAIN!!!! *sob* I spent like hours today crying to my momma about how all I really wanted to do was paint orcs. So this is what I drew once I got everything set up--!!



YEAAAAAAAA!!!

Man the Intuos 4 is the sexiest piece of hardware I have ever owned... wtf. When I was watching the ad video for it I got all embarrassed because I felt like I was watching tablet porn. Everything about it is sleek and classy black, it has a little light up panel to tell you what your button shortcuts do, it has this weird but cool thing called PRECISION MODE and a button to switch which monitor your tablet is tied to!! Ahh!! My god!! I haven't even tried the half-dozen different pen nibs it came with yet.

It has 2k+ levels of sensitivity... JUST LIKE ME *CRYYYYYY*!!

God, I have no savings now but it feels good to have a tool that I'm really happy with (especially when I skimped on this computer... Ugh, computer I love you but you're a little slow. No offense.). I'm probably not going to buy another tablet for at least five years anyway so WHAT. EVAR!!!

I feel like I just got over being constipated for a month. That sounds so vulgar, but it's true!! Losing my little Photoshop world really messed me up... Maybe now I can start to remember why I wanted to go to school in the first place.

WHY DO I SUDDENLY WANT TO GO ON A SHOPPING SPREE!?

WHY DO I WANT TO BUY SO MANY THINGS!?

WHY AM I SUDDENLY SO MATERIALISTIC!?

WHY AM I GOING THROUGH A MOTORCYCLE PHASE? I CAN'T EVEN DRIVE A CAR! I PROBABLY CAN'T EVEN LIFT THE THINGS!

WHY DO I WANT SO MUCH FREAKING BLING? I DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO SPEND ON STUPID USELESS THINGS!

WHY

WHY

WHY


( AMERICA!! )
I WANT IT ALL!!!

I NEED A NEW TABLET BECAUSE MINE JUST DOESN'T WORK WITH THIS SLOW-ASS LAPTOP. GDit when was the last time I was able to make something in Photoshop? When was the last time I made something shiny and COOL!? I'VE GONE OVER A FREAKING MONTH WITHOUT USING ANY COLOR AHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK I'M GOING TO RIP MY HAIR OUT!!!!




MAYBE I'M HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS. I CAN'T DO THE THINGS I USED TO DO. I DON'T HAVE THE THINGS I USED TO HAVE. I GET UP AT 6:30 AM EVERY DAY AND I WRITE ESSAYS!!!!!

WHAT'S GOING ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!??!